Moving Past Home

Walking onto the jetway at JFK to start the first leg of my journey to Rwanda, I had no desire to look behind me. I knew that I was moving forward and each step was taking me closer to my dream post-grad job. The first two months here have been everything I’ve wanted and more. […]

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Why Bipolarization?

By definition, “Bipolarization” describes something that is either characterized by having two extremes, or it is something that is found at two different extremes. Living with Bipolar Disorder means living with more than just the symptoms. It is existing in two extremes on a day to day basis; from the way in which society portrays us […]

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“I will bleed you now”

So a couple weeks ago I hit the six weeks in Rwanda marker. I didn’t really think anything about it until I saw a reminder in my calendar that is just the blood needle emoji signifying that it was time for me to get my blood tested for my valporic acid levels and other basic […]

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“But, how does it feel?”

When people ask me what having Bipolar Disorder feels like, I don’t quite know how to respond. I can rattle off a list of my symptoms and divide them into mania and depression. I can talk about the feelings of self-hatred, the crying spells, the exhaustion, and the insecurities that accompany depression and the fast […]

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